could i get some water,
that wash away memories
could i get some water
to wash away my tears?

could i get my love back
that i once ever get.
NO i cant.
someone's gettin' it back.

i'll let go off my hands,
she should let go too.
she should get a man,
not me, just a fool.

sparks may come
sparks may fly
but the sparks are never mine

i made the choice
that hurt her deep
but another man's
here to heal.
i should let it go now
and set my heart to seal.

my soul was torn my heart was sheared
but my spirit shall always stay
she should make the choice and go to HIM
now and never stay.

i know you are looking at this. you should know what you need to do now, okay?
forget me now, go back to him. he is the one who loves you 100%, not me, kay?

so, Baba! we shall never see again...

^^

?uoyera,efilsihthtiwyppahmai

there is nth wrong with the sentence, its a code. ^^

i am happy, you should feel too ^^

yea yea, wadeva. fine, i stole the key == so lame. wad de hell lar, like school very rich liddat. not enuf money to even buy us air-con for the hall. let alone a wushu carpet that cost 10k. = =

i got the key, school oso soooo empty. nothing for me to take away, so what for i take? dumbass...

pls, hate me for doing that*. pls pls pls, i beg u hate me. i will thank you for hating me, i really will. thank you...

today was a "great day" for me. hmmm, stupid LINDA aka DARLING aka LING FEI go use the tiny blue umbrella in class to touch my cock! sicko lor, nvm oso. cuz my darling ma, = = no lor. cuz i pulled his pants down! sin yee saw his butt!!! hahahaha, really farny lo.

oh yea, DnT we got a stupid dumb toy that... doesnt even look like it could be played... er... no offence mrs abdul =P

today was so boring... haiz...

anyway, dead liao lor, so much fun oso no use = =

zzz, oh yea, wushu learned le JIN SAI TAO LU!!! woooots~ er... first 6 steps nia, lol

still so sian...

joel, the fucker

I was SHEARED, torn apart
By LOVE and every HEART...
I wanna DIE, but still so fine
Why is TOTURE mine?

I hated god for TORTURE,
I hated him made me BLEED...
But i loved the way he give me DEATH,
So my heart wont WEEP...

That girl was to be with me,
But he SEPERATED us away...
With another girl* in mind,
Which cause the girl to FADE...

I wanted her to hate me,
I wanted her to KILL me...
But i dont wish her to be SAD,
Or it will make me mad...

I dont wanted to leave her,
But god wants me so...
With two girls in my mind
Its hard to reap what i sow...

Could i wish upon the MOONLIGHT
That once gave me LIFE,
To kill my heart, DEAD,
And never make me strife...

And,
I was SHEARED, torn apart,
By LOVE and every heart...
I am now really DEAD
So please, make me FADE...

Written by: Joel Fong Guo Wei--The Fucker

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joel, the fucker X(

i feel so... argh!!! i really dont wanna leave her... DUDE! why does god* make me think of her* again! god make me so well in love with her but makes me think of her* again! why do you love playing so much god?! i hate you! freak!

i.. just cant contain my feelings.. i feel so... so pathetic.. i was serious but... i just dont noe how to make her feel that, i feel so.. in.. to her... but at the middle part, he* makes me think of her*, so much so that i had to break up... i cant focus on a love when i had two in my mind... but she* is gone, why do i keep thinking of her?! freaks...

i just... wanna be with her.. but memories of her* still haunts me.. i cant forget her*...

i'm so sorry, hope *you* wont see this blog because.. i dont want you to feel that i am a guy who is very into the love, and deeply hurt.. i just want you to have and impression that i am a playboy... i.. dun want you to think i am that great.. i want you to think that i am a playboy that fools around with girls.. at least maybe we could be together when i could forget her...














sorry...

fuckin' freaks. all the people around me are freaks.
living in storms of calamities, struck by lightning of catasphrope <-- dunno how to spell

freak.

1st day after death

torn apart, my heart,
soul alive, everything else dead.

but my love shall stay
and nvr go astray.




1st day after death

"Become as wings that outshine your sadness, cutting through the white darkness..."--Byakuya~True Light~

"Illuminated by the cold sun
I had some tame freedom
On the miraculous night reflected in the mirror
My soul began to remove its mask"--Byakuya~True Light~

"The fake light that is disappearing
The true light that is being born
In these hands..."--Byakuya~True Light

oh man... i hate this world again and again... nth to comment... the lines above FITS MY FEELINGS...

today

FONG GUO WEI is dead.

i wanna die man, just let me die... i dunno y, but i just wanna die... can i? FUCK MYSELF! I AM DUMB AND STUPID AND.... FUCK!

today rocks! saw dolphin and gave her a bouquet of flowers. she was embarrased i think. and she was shocked, she tot i wont buy that. her frens were like thinking i looked like proposing. lols.

u noe y i only give one flowers? cuz if i buy alot, i blief its cuz i want to love her that many times. i only want to love her one time, in this lifetime and all the way to heaven wif her. only this one time. that's y i only bought her a flower.

TRUE LOVE can only stay for a lifetime and after it, only once. Never twice.

the band was so damn nice today! especially the first one. they formed a BATMAN SYMBOL formation and played batman de song, and SUPERMAN SYMBOL and wif super man song. haha so cute. oh yea, annabel, grace they all at the choir, i love the songs. weeeeeeeeeee~~~ hope u like it too dolphin!


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-Just Me-