dont feel like blogging.
fever two days ago. from 38.2 to 38.5 to 38.9 to 39.9 to 38.2 to 37.2 to 37.7 to 38.2 to 39.0 den now back to 37.2.
wth man. i am stupidly suffering at home.
headache and dizzy spells.
worst. i've got cough. and those demonic coughs caused me to damage my trachea.
then i cant eat solid stuff. must have some liquid in it.
cant drink acidic stuff.
and i ran out of medicine.
and i drank like 27 cups of HOT GREEN TEA ytd and 39 cups of HOT GREEN TEA today.
wtfuck man. and my stomach muscles aches from the coughs. used like 7 tea bags in total.
i aint feeling great. maybe i cant be in school on monday.
or maybe the whole of next week. bahhh. wadeva man.
if my throat heals well, den i go otherwise i keep on coughing, very disturbing.
haiz.
oh well. see doctor tml again.
bah.

stolen questions from chang wen's blog:
what will u choose to be if u are given a chance?
will u want to go back to the past if u are given a chance?
what will u wish if u are given a wish?
if i were given a chance, i will want to be the male pandora, to keep sorrows away from the face of the world. i will protect everyone from the sorrows and pain. if i were to be given a chance to go back to the past, i wont. because i may lose my friends here once i change history. if i were given a wish, i would wish to be a powerful guardian of sorrow. i wish to take sorrow away from this world and fled to somewhere noone can reach me. only then, will the people in the world be happy forever. a world without sorrows. a world without pain. a world without me.

people comes and people go. i cant keep them as friends forever. its just like you cannot keep a butterfuly forever. you need to set it free, so that it can have happiness. isnt that right?

maybe. maybe if i had not been so crazy. perhaps, more serious. then i could keep my friends.
oh well, guess its all up to fate and destiny.

its pretty stupid. pple wont wanna accept the truth right in front of their face.
and they wanna try to convince themselves the other way round.
they wont even believe the truth. like fuck.
its VERY STUPID to just comment that my hair is dyed.
fuckin' people who dont understand what the fuckin' meaning of CHEMICAL BLEACHING DUE TO STRAIGHTENING HAIR-CREAM.
its fuckin' irritatin' to just fuckin' comment about someone's fuckin hair which is so fuckin' not true.
yeayea, i didnt dyed my FUCKIN HAIR. YOU GUYS DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IT SO JUST SHUT THE FUCKING ASS UP!! YOU GUYS DONT FUCKIN KNOW ABOUT ME, DONT FUCKING GIVE A DAMN ABOUT HOW OTHER PEOPLE FEELS AND GIVE FUCKING COMMENTS. DONT YOU FUCKING FEEL ITS FUCKIN'LY STUPID TO FUCKING COMMENT ABOUT SOMEONE'S FUCKING HAIR?! ITS FUCKINLY BASTARDIC, DUMB, RETARDED. GET THAT POINT?!
I AM FUCKING IRRITATED. SO DONT COME FUCKING GIVE COMMENTS ABOUT MY FUCKING HAIR.

AND THE POINT ABOUT ME HAVING NO FUCKING CRUSH OR STEAD, IS FUCKINGLY TRUE. YOU GUYS CAN DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT IT ANYWAY. YOU ARE NOT ME, YOU GUYS WONT KNOW IF I FUCKING AM CRUSHING SOME FUCKER OR NOT. SO DONT FUCKING SAY DUN BELIEVE I GOT A FUCKING STEAD OR A FUCKING CRUSH, CUZ I DONT FUCKING GIVE A DAMN!!

so the conclusion is:
DON'T FUCKING GO AROUND AND COMMENT ABOUT SOMETHING THAT YOU FUCKING DONT KNOW AND IS FUCKING NOT TRUE. ALSO, DON'T FUCKING GO AROUND SAY I DON'T BELIEVE YOU GOT A STEAD OR A CRUSH, CUZ THAT IS FUCKINLY IRRITATING!!!

wassup guys! i am updating. cuz i failed both maths, dad's pissed with me and shut me off from the com. will only be updating about once a week. lol.
so loooong post. erm maybe not v long.
everyday is juz sian for me. i dun feel like talking anw.
alot of things happen. but, nth really emo. haha.
juz wanna shut myself up and concentrate on my work. I THINK I AM IMPROVING IN SHUTTING MYSELF UP =D so happy. XD
anw, its juz pretty stupid to be crazy. i noticed so lol. but its still fun to be crazy as long as i have no more worries about my studies =D
isnt htat a great start?! =DD
hmm, alot of new friendster request. accept them all, but they nvr intro. = =
lol. forget about that.
I SAW SERENE YEO YUN JIE but nvm. since she with her friend, i juz forget it.
I SAW JUN JIE!! he oso with friend at bugis.
OH YEA, i gave wrong directions to a guy in mrt la! so malu. lol.
I SAW CYNTHIA, YANLING, ATIQAH AND JANNAH TODAY!!! =DDD
miss 6-6 alot. i didnt like see some people for like 6546498741313489 years! =((
lol. went for the SC meeting for the haunted house. its gonna be VERY SCARY i tell ya. VERY VERY SCARY. =DD
i helped in! by giving lame ideas. lol. whoops =X hope they dun mind me so extra, and lame. =X
together, they form EXTRA LAME!! =DD OXYMORON!! eh, no its not oxymoron.
LOL!! learned new stuff today.

OXYMORON: definition--two words with contradicting meanings.
_____e.g. i think mary is PRETTY UGLY.
_______Here, pretty is actually meaning beautiful, but ugly not beautiful. So these two words with contradicting meanings are used together to form an oxymoron PRETTY UGLY, which means quite ugly. Another example will be: PEACEFUL WARS. or you would like this SLIM MARY lol, mary seah lai ching!! no offence ar! LOL!!
so nth much happened today. juz met some friends. that's all.
i hate him, to the core.
fuck you.



but for my goal, you aint even a teeny weeny obstacle. u are juz a pebble ugly rock on the road. booya! and i aint gonna go down, sucker.

freak. he dun let me use com.
juz telling u guys i will update later at midnight.
ssshhh.

yay. thanks mr/miss "---"
thank you for tagging my tagboard.
erm, but sad to say you need to improve your spelling.
supposedly you are trying to say "AGUA BASTARD, **** YOU MOTHER."
hmm, cant really inteprete well man. what's "****"?
is it the "f" word? if its so, you are weird. you wanna have sex with my mum?
oh yea, cuz she had surgery already. so she wont get pregnant again.
what a good opportunity to flush your sperms eh? =D
nice, you are such a clever person. its a huge percentage that you are a GUY.
cuz u wanna fuck my mum. nice. how old are you?
mind if you intro? then i'll know who wanna fuck my mum.
isnt that totally great?! someone wanna fuck my mum.
and i'll go OH MY GOSH MUM!! some one wanna fuck you!!!

its pretty lousy and ugly language people use nowadays.
"AGUA" instead of metrosexual.
"GAY" instead of homosexual.
"CHEE BAI" instead of pussy/vagina.
"LAN JIAO/COCK" instead of penis and testicles/balls.
"BASTARD" instead of irritating guy.
oh well, guess ugly people use ugly language. =DD

17 Mar 07, 17:15
---: aquaa bastard fuck ur mother

i love your language! its pretty weird, juz like your face do.
i bet you are juz an immature insolence son of a bitch. =D
or maybe you are born to have this kind of permanent disability of being ugly. and use ugly languages.
man, i pity you. =(( my deepest regards from my heart.
tell you what, i wont get disturbed by those words.
i'll bear that in mind. i wont track you down.
i juz bear that in mind that UGLY PEOPLE ARE JEALOUS OF ME ATTRACTING SO MANY GIRLS. =DD

okay i changed song again. Falling star, Laputa Theme Song. its nice. and emo. great.
pple ask me how i found these emotional songs. the answer to that is, they found me.
i didnt find them. they made their way to me. haha. ironic huh? well, i really didnt find them though. that's all i can say.
BAH. i suddenly feel like playing the piano. didnt touch any piano for like half a year already.
BAH!!! i'll go play.
now.

dun really feel like blogging though. but have to keep my blog alive, so, BLAH. here comes one post.
mixed emotions running through my heart. random thoughts running through my mind.
i think i am losing friends. i dont know why. juz a feeling.
maybe i pushed it too much. trying to joke around thinking it makes pple happy, the ACTUAL thing is, I AM IRRITATING THEM.
at first, i dont believe that i am irritating them. i realized it when i am having random thoughts during class. i cant focus though. i remembered alot of pple's reaction. IRRITATED. i dont think i am thinking too much, cuz i saw it. dozens of times.
maybe i cant fufil this dream, this stupid dream of mine after all. haha well its hard to fufil my dream anyway.

if there is joy, there will always be sorrows.
if there is joy, there will always be jealousy.
if there is joy, there will always be anger.

actually, it makes sense. if there is no sorrows, how can we compare it to joy? if there is joy, people will get jealous of others who get stuff they didnt get to have. if there is joy, there will be people who hated the person, and will be angry that this person is happy instead of sad.
doesnt it make sense?

well, enough of it. i juz need to relax, and shut my fuckin ass up. then i wont be irritating pple. or might as well die, then i wont irritate anyone. haha. and i wont cause trouble. and everyone can still live on without me. and that mum will not have to worry about me, my sis wont snatch with me over the com, i wont piss pple off, pple will have 1 less person to hate bla bla bla.

and. what makes him think that i cant live without him. and he thinks that i need to rely on him. and he thinks that i like him. and that i will thank him for doing those stuff for me. that's QUADRAPLE NAIVE.
who cares about him anyway. he wants everything done by his way. and everyone have to give in for him. he is the reason why i dont like to go home. he is the reason why i hate my home. he is the reason why i am in this misery. why will i care if he have high blood pressure. i dont fucking give a damn about it.
for some reason, i try to forgive him. but he juz dont understands me at all. so. i-gave-up.

haha, pple think i am so carefree, but they dont know how i feel. no one understands me. they juz go BOOM and HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! by my jokes. and they go BYE GUOWEI. and ditch me.

have fun guys. without me. =) isnt that you guys wish me to say. at least my sec1 kids ASK ME. you guys juz go ahead and have fun. and say "you should have gone" and i will say "to?". i dont even know anything. and god. what the fuck is with this "LETS HANG OUT SOME TIME YEA?! ;D" and you all juz get on hangin out yourselve without me. HAHA. some kind of COLD JOKE eh? wow, you guys can sure pick up and overthrow my crown as the most funniest guy eh? ;D good job. go ahead with that. i'll make sure i wont have any friend like you guys.

some of you might juz say, "i thought you dont wanna go wad" or maybe "how to ask you, your face so black?" or even "i was being asked out by them wad. wad u want me to do?".
BAH. who gives a fuck about it.
use your brain dude, use your BLAIN.

and i hate slowpokes. you know how i hated pple who stroll to macdonalds when they say they wanna go and eat QUICKLY. wadde hell is this shit?! strolling juz becuz u wanna eat QUICKLY and you are VERY HUNGRY? what a joke. i also hate pple who decided where to eat, but changed location again halfway through the journey. wtshit man.
imagine this...
One day ABC went to find me to eat.
She said "i am very hungry you know. wanna eat out?"
and i'm like "oh okay sure"
she said "where shall we go to eat, somewhere near pls? cuz i've got cca later."
and i'm like "alright. how about mac?"
she said "oh okay."
and i walked off.
and she's like "uuhhh!! mac's fatty ya know?"
and i'm like "oh okay, where then?"
and she's like "........................"
so i stared at her and i go "........................."
and she said "never mind lets go mac"
i go "= = okay fine."
she said "but its FAR!"
and i go "alright, where then?"
and she goes "..........."
i go "................"
fine times up. CCA time.
wtshit la. BAH.
stupid.

waga tate wa kowaremasu,
waga yaiba wa yaku ni tatanai.
kanashimi uchikatsu boku
kabaa boku kara hikari.
itsu ishi kono itami yamete?

if you dont like me, go ahead and tell me. dont be a whim and talk to others into their ears in front of me and look at me. its freakin irritating. open your mouth and say it clear to me whether you are badmouthing me or not. i wont fight with you but i hate pple who talk into ears in front of me. TO THE GUY WHO SITS IN FRONT(x2) and right of me. to be straight in front of keiko.
ITS IRRITATING!!

picking myself up today, and braced myself for headaches =x
indeed, headaches today again. hate it. gosh.
and i've got wushu tmr. wth. i tell ya, i wont be joining the competition next year. =D
gosh, i got L1R5:26
gosh gosh gosh. need to like mug for 6354684897321348461 years to do well la!!
grrr...
ohoh, thanks KIWI for posting the photos, can you send me? thanks!! =DDDD

everyday's a special day, today tommorow, yesterday =D

now that's SO random. young people are getting rude nowadays eh, dont you agree?
like c'mon, you guys should be more "civilised" okay. rude pple=rude attitude. rude pple is not = to vulgar pple. get that point, alright!

lol, gosh i am like getting emo meh?
wth i didnt la pple! i am sooooooo cheeerrrfullll!!!
ohoh! today was seducing pple day! i tried seducing NICHOLAS TEO but he pushed me away.
i tried on justin and he was like "ahh, c'mon baby.." i was like O.O wtf man.
and he got horny a little. lol. i tried pressing his dick. its a little harder one of the time. LOL.
okay, call me sick. lol.
cuz i am sick. ROFL. i am a guy with a psychological barrier eh? NICE ONE JOSHUA.


hmm... i think i am irritating and offending alot of pple.
so i am gonna like shut my arse up for the year, i think. =)

ALOT of things happened okay.

JEM, i totally agree with yvonne.
hanging a pissed-off face is like shit okay. it potrays a negative image to other pple. i mean you might not know that you are actually hanging that face but. seriously you have to get a mirror to check if you are. i mean i thought you were pissed with me man, and i didnt talk to you luh. den i go sit with joshua and zach. i didnt mean to pang-seh you. its just you must learn to be able to lift and put things down easily :))

i think everyone hates me. i dont know why. but i think everyone dont like me.
i think the guys in 3B1 dont like me alot. i think the girls in other classes dont like me alot.
i dont know. god, please answer my prayer. its been time since i came to you.
please answer it. thanks.

yilin, its okay. i am being neutral la. its noone's fault. blame on the slanted perspective okay. i'm not saying anyone is wrong. juz that that's reality, you have to accept that some things just happen in this way, of no reason. sometimes its ironic and irrational. bear with it. =))

shenting. come back soon. we are waiting. =))
shen khueen. come back soon. ur friends are waiting. =))

yanwah. life sucks. i do agree but, look at some bright ways. smiless kayss =))

guys. i dont know if you guys dont like me or what. but, i juz wanna say. if you guys dont like me, juz tell friggin straight to me. dont juz like avoid me or what. i dont know if my acting gay personality is like friggin annoying or what (although i noe it does annoys pple easily). i am already stopping it haha. juz with the exception of flying kisses. that's my way of greeting. haha. if you guys dont like it, fine. i have nth to say anyway. juz wana let you guys know that, if you pple dont like me, juz tell me. its not as if i will not like you too. or maybe tell me to change in someways, i will do my best okay.

absolute no mood day everyday.

gosh. i like zomg CRIED just now...
cuz i thinking of my cousin then i REALLY REALLY CRIED.
i didnt really get sad and REALLY REALLY cry for like 4years plus le.
even my great grandma die i oso nvr cry. even when i broke up with kiwi i oso nvr cry.
even when i broke up with jen, i oso nvr cry. i only really cried when my cousin, shaaron died.
i miss you shaaron..

my mum cried when she heard kahyan's story.
i cried when i told her kahyan's story.
my sis decided to donate 5bucks. so sweet... =)
i decided to donate 5 or more.
KAHYAN!! STAY STRONG, I'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS OSO ;D
it maybe hard, but i believe you will go through.
if there's anything you wanna pour out, can call me/von/jem. =))
we will be just a phone call away.

"if one day you feel like crying, call me.
i wont promise to make you laugh but i can cry with you."
remember? (:

srry guys! didnt update cuz i wasnt able to use the com. T.T
haha, back to posting.
YAY. like nth is wrong la pple. haha.
and i didnt like become sooooo reserved okay = =
i hypered. i hornied. i crazed in class. everyday. lol. so i didnt like become soooooooooo quiet leh!!
lol.
past few days are rush. didnt get to see mum. =((
past few days reach home study and sleep, den mum reach home like 10+ i slept le.
den morning she sleeping didnt get to see her. =((
only get to talk to her on phone today and ytd. for a few minutes.
SO TODAY! i am going to FINALLY stay up and wait for her to return. =)
its weird that i am missing my mum, like finally =D
cuz i dont wanna lose someone i love, and take them for granted ;D
my hair is like SHIET past few days. short. and nerdy.
wtfuck man lol.
ok so past few days has been EMO to me cuz. i dunno why. studies?
and i feel easily irritated. SORRY TO THOSE WHOM I OFFENDED =((
anyway, i GAYED around alot. gosh. gotta get back and focus on work.
lol. aww, something REALLY BAD happen today.
kahyan, no matter what happen, me, von and jem will be right by your side =))

well, it reminds me alot on my cousin...
she was sooooo goood to my other small cousins and my sisters and me.
she is the oldest among all of my cousins. then. she was struck with leukimia.
at first everything went well. until one day, the cancer cells spread throughout her body.
its attacking hard on her. she was admitted to hospital and under special care.
he dreamt of a man telling her to walk crawl under the table and she will be cured.
she told the dream to my aunt and my mum, and she did that.
all of a sudden, her condition improved alot.
then, she became stubborn, and dont wanna go for the treatment.
then her ilness worsen. and she. couldnt control the cancer cells anymore.
...
...
den she died. i was only p6. PSLE was nearing. in a few months time.
den i cried alot. she was very good to us. she spends alot of money for our christmas presents, birthday presents, and nvr ever forgets everyone of our birthday.
and she died. just like that. i didnt even have a chance to let her see me for the last time.
and i hate myself alot, why didnt i pray for her. in fact, nobody even prayed to god for her.
except one of my aunt. i am so stupid. silly. idiot. bastard.
and everytime i think of her, i feel like crying. i miss her. she taught me alot.
in life, and in academics. and she was gone. just like that.

Na na Na na na na na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
Cuz i remember it clearly
The day you slipped away, was the day
I found it won't be the same
Oh Na na Na na na na na
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
I hope you can hear me
Cuz i remember it clearly
The day you slipped away, was the day
I found it won't be the same
I've had my wake up Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
I can't take it It wasn't fake
It happened you passed by
Now you're gone, Now you're gone
There you go,There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone, Now you're gone
There you goThere you go
Somewhere you're not coming back
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
oh..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that I found it won't be the same
oooh...
I miss you...