i wanna try out Revo-tia. but mum just said NO. NO. NO! fuck lar. should i leave it like this?
no i cant. she said that we are very bao shou then we dont dance. = = so lame lar. i say people got primary school go dance wad. i pri school oso got dance lor = = and then summore, she say cuz the parents want them to do so = = so lame la, mostly is that children wants to do it, parents will give advices instead of just blowing it up with a strict NO, NO or NO. they should support their children de ma. anyway, if they dun wish me to do that, they should at least let me try, gimme a chance to prove them, right?

oh man, they just wont listen and budge. guess wad?

PARENTS ARE THE OBSTUCTION OF CHILDREN'S HAPPINESS. IT'S THE SAME EVERYTIME.

great just great. i really really wanna shout out:
CANT YOU JUST LISTEN TO ME TALK? ITS TIME FOR ME TO MAKE MY DECISION AND YOU JUST LISTEN AND GIVE ADVICES! YOU MAKE ME FEEL SO DEPRESSED EVERYTIME YOU TALK. YOU MAKE ME ANGRY EVERYTIME YOU TALK. YOU MAKE ME FALL EVERYTIME YOU TALK THAT FUCKING ROT!!! CANT YOU JUST LISTEN TO ME TALK???!!! YOU DONT KNOW WHEN TO KEEP QUIET, WHEN TO SUPPORT YOUR CHILD WHEN HE NEEDS HELP, WHEN TO HELP HIM UP, WHEN HE NEEDS YOUR CARE, WHEN HE NEEDS EVERYTHING!!! SO WHAT RIGHT DO YOU SERVE AS A PARENT?! ok giving money to me, that counts as what a parent does but most importantly, i need your ATTENTION... can you just give me those that i badly need? you just shut every conversation that i wanna say with a NO NO NO!!! I BADLY NEED ATTENTION!!!

it goes the same for all the conversation, not only this dance thingy. same goes to my dad. he shuts me up everytime. he dun know what i want and need. = = i really wanna burst. i wanna SMOKE, DRINK, KILL and become a GANGSTER!!! oh pls, just gimme some attention... i really need the attention... i dont wanna ROT WHEN I AM NOW DEAD... oh yea, i died in 5th July 2006. pls??? gimme those thing i wanted since i was neglected...

i really have nth to say. whats the use of living in this world when this world dont even care?! ok, frens may care but parents do not. its the same as an empty world.

i really wanna ROT now...

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joel

simply rotting