aw... shit me. ok, so last night mum was like NO WAY I AM GONNA LET U GO TO DANCE HIP-HOP. i was like, what? can u give me any reason? but she said, NO MEANS NO, GO STUDY HARD, DUN THINK ABOUT THIS WU LIAO STUFF. shit her lar, i was so pissed n hurt n i ran into my room. fuckin' dad was using the com, so damn noisy. didnt noticed i shed a tear, freak lar... ok, so mum kept opening the door to check on me, but i was all along underneath my blanket and she cant see what i am doing. and the door goes opening and closing so i supposed mum was checking on me. whatever~ anyway, before that mum shouted at me, WHAT FRIEND IS THAT TO TELL YOU TO TRY FOR THE DANCE CREW, U GIVE ME THE NAME AND THE HANDPHONE NUMBER, I WILL GO CALL AND SCOLD THE FRIEND OF YOURS! shit her lar, i think she tot that i was joining the bad company. she said that that friend was trying to make my results drop = = its fiona, hello~? duh, fiona is a good senior from express stream de ok?! she wont do that de... think i trust frens more than my family... haiz...

ok so today i was completely ignoring mum. mum was like making decision for my everything! i woke up in the morning and went to bath. i took my jersey and mum said, why u wear that? go outdoors than wear ma... i said jersey can be worn at home mum... she said, but its new dun wear lar. then i did not wear that jersey = = then coming to lunch she asked if i wanna eat laksa and she will cook, i said no, there's leftover chicken yesterday, i'll eat that. she said she wants that for dinner as an additional dish = = then i said, i want maggie mee, she said maggie mee u eat when no one in the house lar... i was like, ok lar! wadeva u wanna cook, i eat, ok?! walau... making decision for me lor = =

ok so i was like completely ignoring her when i was eating. she kept talking about that i better focus on my studies cuz when she was young she was poor and so she had no money to study. she studied till P6 and went to work and yada yada yada yada... ... ... ok so she was like, fine, whatever i say i dont think u will wanna listen now, but i really hope u will remember it... cuz i was completely ignoring what's she's saying and was like very sad or wadeva. I DUN CARE cuz she doesnt even understand me, she doesnt even know wad i wanna do. she obviously dont care about my feelings so why should i care about her feelings?

shit me, ok so i was like wanna play alot of great songs for music project but the score sheet is too diff for me so i dun wanna do it.




today was a fuck



joel,
depressed & ignoring ='(