srry guys! didnt update cuz i wasnt able to use the com. T.T
haha, back to posting.
YAY. like nth is wrong la pple. haha.
and i didnt like become sooooo reserved okay = =
i hypered. i hornied. i crazed in class. everyday. lol. so i didnt like become soooooooooo quiet leh!!
lol.
past few days are rush. didnt get to see mum. =((
past few days reach home study and sleep, den mum reach home like 10+ i slept le.
den morning she sleeping didnt get to see her. =((
only get to talk to her on phone today and ytd. for a few minutes.
SO TODAY! i am going to FINALLY stay up and wait for her to return. =)
its weird that i am missing my mum, like finally =D
cuz i dont wanna lose someone i love, and take them for granted ;D
my hair is like SHIET past few days. short. and nerdy.
wtfuck man lol.
ok so past few days has been EMO to me cuz. i dunno why. studies?
and i feel easily irritated. SORRY TO THOSE WHOM I OFFENDED =((
anyway, i GAYED around alot. gosh. gotta get back and focus on work.
lol. aww, something REALLY BAD happen today.
kahyan, no matter what happen, me, von and jem will be right by your side =))

well, it reminds me alot on my cousin...
she was sooooo goood to my other small cousins and my sisters and me.
she is the oldest among all of my cousins. then. she was struck with leukimia.
at first everything went well. until one day, the cancer cells spread throughout her body.
its attacking hard on her. she was admitted to hospital and under special care.
he dreamt of a man telling her to walk crawl under the table and she will be cured.
she told the dream to my aunt and my mum, and she did that.
all of a sudden, her condition improved alot.
then, she became stubborn, and dont wanna go for the treatment.
then her ilness worsen. and she. couldnt control the cancer cells anymore.
...
...
den she died. i was only p6. PSLE was nearing. in a few months time.
den i cried alot. she was very good to us. she spends alot of money for our christmas presents, birthday presents, and nvr ever forgets everyone of our birthday.
and she died. just like that. i didnt even have a chance to let her see me for the last time.
and i hate myself alot, why didnt i pray for her. in fact, nobody even prayed to god for her.
except one of my aunt. i am so stupid. silly. idiot. bastard.
and everytime i think of her, i feel like crying. i miss her. she taught me alot.
in life, and in academics. and she was gone. just like that.

Na na Na na na na na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
Cuz i remember it clearly
The day you slipped away, was the day
I found it won't be the same
Oh Na na Na na na na na
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
I hope you can hear me
Cuz i remember it clearly
The day you slipped away, was the day
I found it won't be the same
I've had my wake up Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
I can't take it It wasn't fake
It happened you passed by
Now you're gone, Now you're gone
There you go,There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone, Now you're gone
There you goThere you go
Somewhere you're not coming back
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
oh..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that I found it won't be the same
oooh...
I miss you...