i have random thoughts everyday.
watched a cinderella story just now. the world is ugly.
people dont seem to look into the true hearts of others.
and people pretends. they dont show their true self. they just pretend.
i am always waiting for my princess to show up. but the time isnt right.
even if i had my princess in front of me, i might just reject. because the time just isnt right.
the time is right, once i see the rainbow. the true colours.

i've thought over. there are people who like me, and there are those who dont.
but i dont have to care about how other feels about me.
because i am just me. what others say about me will never affect me.
they might say i'm metrosexual, i wont agree.
i am not metrosexual. i am just myself. i am ryu, just myself.
everyone is born with a name they wanted themselve.
i am born with the name i wanted; ryu. i just want to be the dragon, so carefree, brave and strong.
i never in my life pretends. i am just me. if i pretend, i will try to be me again.
i cant stand everyone around me pretending. pretending to be okay, when you are not.
pretends to be happy when you are sad.
I DONT LIKE PRETENDERS.
hate is a word too strong to be used.
i tell you what, i will change.
use lesser vulgarities. be the person i am.

haha just deleted those pictures in friendster. changed the main photo to some retarded one.
well i guessed it. people are all after this "material things" in this world after all.
they look out for hot guys/hot babes and dont see in to the heart.
girls out there might be thinking i'm very good-looking, but i dont think so.
they just see what's outside, not what's inside.
i myself thinks that i'm ugly.
i lie, cheat and hurts people. i think. i think i hurt alot of people, which is such an ugly thing to do ): oh well.
anyway, my dp changed into some retarded photo, not my face, because i want people to add me as in who i am.
not because i am good-looking, but because i am suitable to be their friends.
i am changing my profile too.
not reveal too much about myself. haha.
only those who are REALLY interested in me will go through the effort in talking to me in msn.
others take it for granted i will treat them like a friend.
but i wont. i am only interested in those who are interested in me (:

just trying to make people know who i am. that's all.
i wont lie any more. but there will always secrets that i keep. so well.
dont probe me, cause i will only tell you if i wanted to. haha.

hmm, everyday seems to be a better day as i set out to seek my future!
i'm glad i've seen a cinderella story today. looking out for those "life-teaching" movies.
i'm gonna see that jap movie some how. that dunno wad sou sou movie. haha
well gtg. bye.