hey guys! very sorry for late updates. there have been some people telling me to update.
dunno why. but they said my post were interesting =D thanks ;)

woke up in the morning and wonder where you are.
missing you terribly, but i still live on.
took a cup of water and went back to my dreams.
the azure sky, the sandy beach, the rippling waves.
with you in that picture, it makes everything wonderful.
with an appeal of the song "rompe", the picture was torn up and i returned back to this world.
dad, mum and granny were gone. out in johor perhaps.
went into sis room and had talks. random talks. real random.
so perhaps its just the way you potray gives me a sense of security, and perhaps a touch of harsh winter.
my mind was all on you, but still. i live on.
yearning for the computer, and i've got to touch it now. even for the only next few hours, i just wanna talk to you.
talk yes. and i am wondering how you are doing.
you give me sweet dreams, but nightmares too.
fearing you die, happy that you smile.
great. just great.


the reason why i chose this blogskin was firstly, without you, my world is in darkness.
i need you to light my way. but since you arent here, i'll just brave all my fears and feel around for my way.
even if i met up with dangers lurking in the darkness, i still need to move on: with or without you.
but it will make my life more difficult to forget that i can see the light, than to keep holding onto the hope that light will show me the way.
so i shall keep wishing for the guiding light to appear.
it might appear that my light is wishing for its source to come: the light had been wanting a source, so the light may or maynot be with me.
this way or that, the light has to be with me, or be with the source it wanted.
and i will still live on, with or without the light.

this song is called shiroi yuki; white snow.
the cold harsh snow that froze my world. i am cold, and i need warmth.
the light that can keep me warm, is never coming near.
how i wish the source that the light wants is me. i will be the source, instead of the boy in the darkness.
ah well..



okay, i am so gonna get that psp in my hands. and BLEACH HEAT OF THE SOUL 4.
i am so gonna get them. i must. so i am gonna work hard for all my exams.
i think i can focus. i think i can. i will. i definitely will.
so tell me, izzit only AUDREY or am I actually in love with the game LOCOROCO?
its so cute can!! i am so gonna get that psp.
actually, with much thought today, i thought that psp is not really what i wanted.
haha. so yea. well, i love this blogskin. and i am gonna keep it for long. long. long.
saw this movie today.
i think the english subbed name is "standing at the centre of the world listening to the world whisper" or what shit.
in chinese its 站在世界中心听着世界的呼唤 (zhan4 zai4 shi4 jie4 zhong1 xin1 ting1 zhe4 shi4 jie4 de4 hu1 huan4)
haha. bah. its a touching love story. really touching.
you know how much i wanna curse myself with blood cancer? leukimea or leukemia or dunno wad shit. haha.
its cool to have it. then i can slowly suffer and die from it.
isnt it... cool...?