yay! changed blogskin again! haha.
<3 creating blogskins =x although v ugly.
wtf can. i think i am gonna leave home one day.
but i dont know where to go. and i no money oso.
zzz. i think i shall work in hols, so i wont get to see that fuckin face, and hear the fucking voice, and observe the fucking attitude.
you know what? i will commit suicide once i had enough.
i am on the verge of going bungee-jumping from my hdb flat.
so fun can!! =D
haha, and also, i almost manage to do that okay.
zzz. i feel stupid. retarded.
and oh yea, my dad dont want me to use com.
i ask him ytd he was like "use for wad?! got revise ur studies la!"
and my sis can use. its juz so not fair okay.
just because u caught me watching porn, doesnt mean i will stop watching it okay.
but erm, lol i quit porning for sooooooooooooo long ago can = =
and you dont want me to masturbate. wtfuck can.
you dont even act as a father and you try to control my life, it just SO DOESNT MAKE SENSE OKAY.
go fuck your si lan jiao elsewhere, stop pissing into my life la!
you dont let me use com, you dont let me go out, and you just dont trust me.
fuck can.
theres millions of things u did to me, and i remembered them.
especially those sentences. those sentences that make me wanna go bungee-jumping.
those words. of pain. of heat-shot pain.
you wont know the pain. NO. YOU WONT.
i shall die one day, i shall.
I SWEAR ON MY LIFE THAT YOU WILL SEE ME DIE, IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES. I SWEAR THAT ON MY LIFE.
i curse you that you will lose your son.
lose that one and only son who tries to please you but you shut him off.
lose that one and only son who tries to do things your way but you make things even difficult for him.
lose that one and only son who tried his best in all his studies but you didnt even see his effort and scolded him everyday.
lose that one and only son who is out going with all his friends.
lose that one and only son.
that preciousunwanted son.

my friends, i want to tell all of you that, do not worry for me.
for what i become in future will never be the same.
it is just so that you must remember the present me in your heart.
not the future one. i will remember all of you for life.
but that depends on my mind.
dont worry, i am not going bungee-jumping off the hdb flat.
i wont. well, not so soon.
but i will not know when i will become uncontrollably wild, and crazy.
for then, i will rave and fly off. to heaven.